Put Down That Knife

Dark thoughts run through my head, what would the world be like if I were dead?
I picture my classmates laughing with glee, my teachers smiling, happy to be rid of me
I see my friends frowning, but smiling at times, I see my crushes eyes watering the glint of a dime.
My mother is crying, but is happier still, no more waste of money or another mouth to fill.
My entire family will forget about me soon, their lives no longer filled with darkness and gloom.

Yes, this is what I see, but in reality I know that this is what would be.
My classmates all shocked, scared, upset thinking to themselves "what could I have done to stop it?"
My teachers in tears wishing they could've known "how oh how could it have not shown?"
My friends bawling and blaming themselves "I knew there were problems, why didn't I help?"
My crush sitting, crying curled up in a ball "why didn't I tell her my true feelings at
all?"
My mother screaming, breaking everything in sight, "what did I do wrong, I thought I did everything right?"
My family sitting together, remembering good times and bad, I'll be looking down at them saying "please don't be sad."

Yes, I think of this, and yet I smile, I know that I am strong and I'll last for quite awhile.
So, before you think of suicide, what you call a release from pain, ask yourself one question "what is there to gain?"
All you'll do is hurt the ones that you love, you'll get to see the tears that they shed, you get to watch them suffer and grieve in their bed.
NOTHING, no matter how bad is ever worth your life, so please listen to me now and put down that knife.